The Calm Before The Storm

Friday, March 01, 2019

I am writing this post the day after I finished my mock exams, with the rest of the week off since mine happened to fall at right at the beginning of the week. I feel relieved, although its a short lived relief because the pressure hasn't really been lifted, at all, for two reasons.

Firstly, for the rest of this week, I have to produce a lot of art work that I abandoned until now to prioritise revision, which all though I do enjoy (only occassionally that is debatable) I am really feeling the pressure of needing to get the marks, and the fact this all goes towards my final grade.
Secondly, the break between mock exams and the real thing is so small, because of all the content, that I can barely breathe before I will need to start revising again.

Right now, in this moment, it feels like the calm before the storm. It certainly does weather wise, it is so warm for the most unusual time of year it feels only natural that the temperature will have to plummet before it goes up again. It's weird, the warmth, it's putting me on edge. A year ago to this very day I woke up to snow, on the way to college the boys were having a snowball fight and I was desperately trying to dodge them. Now I am walking around in a T-Shirt. It doesn't feel right, at all, but that's an issue for another day.

It really feels like the calm before the storm because I have a week or so before I get my marks back of my mock exams, where I realise what I need to do to improve, and in the case of French it will probably become real the ridiculous amount of work I am going to have to put in. But for now, I can be oblivious to how I've done and what I need to do for a while.

I have gone off on such a tangent, I actually started writing this to update you all about my blog. I always knew it would inevitably take a back seat, but I don't want to abandon it for a few months. My head isn't particularly in the blogging game right now, understandably, and I simply don't have the time for my usual goal of two posts a week, but I am determined to keep going with it somewhat. During this week, and a bit at Easter, I plan to draft some posts so I should have a post up once a week most of the time.

I am looking forward to June wholeheartedly, especially when it comes to blogging. I have some ideas that just aren't possible time wise right now, so come the end of A Levels I cannot wait to create some posts I am really excited about.

This post has felt like a ramble but really my intention was for a little update, featuring some sundrenched Huji photos. It is a weird pressure like nothing ever before, is A Levels, because this time where I really want to go next year depends on it. I would love to hear if you're in the same position as I am, in which case good luck to you! Or, if you have been in the same position as I am in before. It's kind of scary, but I am trying to take it all in before the storm begins.

EG x


  1. I know this sounds so cliched, but you can totally do this. I got average A-Level mock results but ended up finishing with 2A*'s and 3A's because I put the work in for a long period of time.

    Mocks are there to show you what the experience will be like. Don't worry about the result so much and instead use it as a learning tool!

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  2. I wish you all the luck for your A levels. I know it's easy to say but try not to let it stress you out too much! You can do it! I can't wait for June either as that means I'll have completed my final year at university and I'm so ready for it to be over.

    Tabitha ♥