Five Years On

Monday, June 26, 2017

I don't often post reflective posts on my blog but I felt it was fitting to end the past chapter of my life. On Friday 16th June 2017 I took my final GCSE and five days later, I said my final goodbye to my high school journey at prom. It's been a rollercoaster of five years, but one I am content with now I am on the other side.

Almost five years ago I began high school, nieve, fresh and with a skirt slightly too long than I wish it had been. It took a long time to feel like I fit in; having never felt like I fit in primary school all I wanted was to finally feel like I belonged and it took a while to find that. Eventually I found a great best friend who I shared many giggly memories with through years 8-10 and made the awful PE lessons a bit better than they could have been.

Around year nine when I found I had interests I couldn't really chat to my friends about, I set up my blog and have found so much happiness and confidence through it. I have a place to ramble about makeup - my interest for which has flourished over the past couple of years thanks to my blog, and music - whereas my friends have made fun of me for my love of Harry Styles during the past five years. My blog is a place I am able to embrace my interests and have made some lovely friends through it. Besides school, blogging has become a big part of my life and my biggest hobby, long may it continue.

Five years ago at an induction day for high school, we had to say facts about ourselves and one of mine was "my least favourite subject is history". The teacher with us was actually one of our history teachers and she told me they would change that at high school. I don't know how they did it, but history became my favourite subject and I've had so much fun in our lessons over the past two years. I won't miss many lessons (certainly not the six hours of science a week!) but history is one I'll miss dearly and I just hope it is as good at college!

As I reached the end of year ten, reaching the most important year of my life, my friendships seemed to fall apart. My best friend who I trusted and depended on changed and drifted away, finding a new friendship group and leaving me solo, feeling lonely and lost. This made year ten my least favourite year, but thanks to it made year eleven the best. In year eleven I found a friendship group I was the happiest I had ever been in, and although there are always ups and downs I finally felt included and like I could be myself. It was the best feeling and made my last year at high school feel so great.

Prom night is always expected to bring its drama as the finale of the past five years and it certainly didn't disappoint, but as I walked down the red carpet leading us in by myself, while my best friends walked in with boys who they seemed to deem more important than our friendship, I realised although high school depends on the experiences you have with the people inside it, the most important thing is your attitude towards it. You have to embrace the studying, never-ending revision and the hardship it comes with to reap the benefits on the other side. Your hard work will get rewarded, so hold your head high and own it.

For a long time during year eleven, I wanted it to continue forever. I don't like change at the best of the times and since I was finally happy where I was, I didn't want to have to change. But now I feel ready for the change of moving on to college next year. I'm saying goodbye to some people I've seen every day for the past five years and I know I will miss some of them a lot. But I'm ready.

I've changed a lot over the past five years, from being afraid, nervous and once freezing on the spot giving a maths presentation (why were we made to do those things?) to someone much more confident and happy with themself. I don't take people's remarks seriously anymore - although this has to work the opposite way too, please can everyone stop taking my sarcastic jokes deadly serious?

Five years on from the young eleven-years-old me excited for high school, on the other side wondering where the next five years will lead me. Five years on from now, I'll actually be finishing university, believe it or not?! I'll definitely try not to overthink this and end my post here I think!

If you're still in high school, I'd love to hear how you're finding it at the moment. Surround yourself with the best people and don't bring yourself down. If you've finished high school I'd love to hear how your experience was.


  1. It's so brave of you to share everything you've been through. I found that Year 11 was one of the best years of the past five. I'm going to be doing IB and hope that these last two years are better than the past five. x Nikita

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    1. Thank you! Mine too! I hope your next two years are fun x

  2. I think it was so lovely of you to share this experience. It's amazing how much people change. Although sometimes it is hard, we must learn to embrace it.

    Meg x |

  3. Congratulations!! There is time that I lost my best friend too.
    Losing something is not the end of the world. You will always find something better.
    It is also happy to hear that you find a new group of besties in the next year.

    jess x |

    1. I've certainly learnt that over the years! Definitely come out on the other side better. Thank you x

  4. It's quite interesting that you had the same experience with friendships that I did in High School. I went from primary school to high school with one of my best friends, but by 4th year we had drifted so much, there simply wasn't going to be a turnaround. She had new friends and I went solo for a bit before falling in with a group of girls - I still moved schools by the end of 4th year due to bullying, where I fell straight into a new friendship group & it was fantastic until the last few months of secondary - I don't talk to anyone from High school now unless I pass them in the street, and I never did manage to make friends in College... but I'm hoping when I return to my studies this year that I'll be a bit more lucky x

    1. Aw I hope you manage to find a great friendship group this year! At least you enjoyed the last few months of secondary, just as I did, which I can imagine would be even harder after being bullied - I was bullied at primary school and still feel like it has affected me as a person now. Thanks for sharing! x

  5. I think it's great you've got such good memories from high school, I left 13+ years ago and don't have any photos from that time. Good luck with whatever you have planned next <3

    Amy -